Haven’t updated in about two months, this has been a lot harder than I though it would. It takes a lot out of me to relive these stories and all the good memories. I just have to remind myself he is not that person anymore, but thats hard to do considering I loved the person he was so much. I don’t understand why I cant just let go and move on. For the past two weeks I have hardly slept, every single night I dream about him, or her, or both. I’d rather not sleep then have to dream about all of that. Im just stuck here. Wondering when its ever going to get easier. It’s not fair.